The pain this week is about unbearable. I really want one day feeling well.

Could barely get out of bed this morning but knew I had to get to the University to teach. Class helped me forget for a short bit but now all I want to do is lay on the floor. I have been getting more and more of a feeling that my heart is gonna give out. I'm afraid to plan a trip away from home because I feel so lousy.

I keep asking myself why? Why did this happen? Why can't I be well and go back to enjoying the things I used to enjoy?