Monday, January 31, 2011

Light at the end of the tunnel?

Since my surgery in December, I have had increased energy, less angina and have been able to do more. They placed two stents in my circumflex and my surgeon is going to work on my right coronary in March. If they can fix that one too then I will be in really good shape for a while. I just then needs to keep the arteries clear.

Sometimes I wonder why we have to go thru things like this? Just the luck of the draw?

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Mormon Morality

Another good quote today by Stephen Fonnesbeck.

"The whole fantasy of virtue as it's applied to sexual virginity is more important in the church than, moral excellence; goodness; righteousness; conformity of one's life and conduct to moral and ethical principles; uprightness; rectitude or just simply not being a lying cheating bastard. No, with the church, it's all about SEX! As if sex is the end all be all of morality. When ever I hear the word morals spoken of by anyone in the chruch, they are automatically talking about sex."

Wednesday, January 12, 2011


In regards to the Mormon Church's dress codes I saw the following quote by Matt Elggren:

"The uniform for men is an expression of their alignment with authority. The uniform for women is an expression of their submission to authority."

Monday, January 3, 2011

What is a Lamanite?


Back in 2009 I had an interesting experience.

Here is what I wrote last night about the experience.

February 28th 2009 I attended a spirituality retreat out side of Las Vegas at the Methodist Potosi Pines camp. First thing in the morning I got up and took a short walk and did a little meditation. Breakfast was at 8:30 and I met the others in the main building and had a nice relaxing breakfast.

At 9am the program started. Soft guitar music and a slide show presentation where given to help set everyone in a restful mood. The slides were of flowers and really did help. After a bit I closed my eyes to sit and listen to the music. Some people sang and others sat quiet.

While sitting there and moving into a meditative state I began to think about G_d and how I had problems with him. For quite a while now I have been angry with G_d and his absent father motif. As I sat I had an ecstatic experience. I saw a woman approach and knew immediately it was the Shekinah. I could see myself below and she was in the air above me as I looked on from the side. She did not speak a word but held out her hand to me. She was wearing a white or off-white flowing gown that looked almost like a medieval cotehardie. She looked like a northern European and I noticed she had medium blue eyes and a slender face with a small nose. As far as I could tell she also had blonde hair. I wondered at the time why she would not have looked like she came from the Middle East.

As I looked at her while she held out her hand I could see her face clearly and wished I was a good enough artist to draw it. The whole scene was very peaceful. I know in real time it took very little time at all but while in the state it seemed to go on for quite a while until the vision faded.

What it all meant I'm not sure but will be meditating on this experience to find what meaning it has to offer.