Saturday, April 23, 2011


Why do we let things get to us. Or specifically why do I let things get to me. The director of the department I work in made me out to be a terrible person in front of the rest of the people int he department. It stressed me out so bad that I began to have stress induced angina. It happened before the class I teach and I had to sit for a little while in the locker room shaking before I could go to teach. I don't know why it affected me as much as it did. Maybe because after problems in the past and extensive talk with a third party I thought things were good. The person is plain socially inept. Luckily I am not the only one who thinks so. Others in the department have stated the same thing.

Its two days later now and I feel better. It happened on a Thursday and I told my supervisor I was not coming back to work till after Easter.

So what makes the physiological affect that I had?

1 comment:

  1. I don't know what caused the affect for you, but I can tell you what causes an affect like that for me:
    It triggers something from the past that I haven't dealt with. I am immediately thrown back to whatever time it was that it happened. (For instance, when my mom talks about the church, I have the same physical reaction of fear, terror, a desire to please, and hopelessness that I had when I was seven and "had" to get baptized. Its not a current feeling, even though it feels like it.)
    The other possibility is that you are being violated, so your "system" (body, mind, and spirit) is letting you know in the best way it can. Your system knows you'll listen to chest pain, so that is how it tells you that you're not safe in that environment. (I'd get dizzy, and then pass out. I paid attention to what I was feeling, experiencing, etc., when I passed out.)

    I think you did exactly what you needed to do by taking the time off.

    (And for the record, anyone that makes you out to be a terrible person is off their rocker! You are one of the kindest and most gentle people I have ever met!)